OPENMYLOVELETTER.

This is a love letter. Here.

Hey, is your heart racing?

You’re holding your breath

And you can’t talk,

But you move your lips, a little.

I pass it across the table

Quick, bold, in an arc of lavender

Across the table from me to you.

Yeah, I’m not supposed to.

Not supposed to do this.

But I don’t care
I love, I love, I love you.

I love you even though

I’m not supposed to.

I blush, blood to my face

My heart beats too.

I wonder, is that shock?

That crashing blue stabbing

Yellow-gray paralyzing

Stabbing, stabbing in my chest,

Stabbing in my in my chest?

I let out a shaky breath.

My mouth forms words.

Circumlocution, sounds

Words without meanings.

Spilling out I look down at glass

Flowing out over it

In ellipses are elliptical words.

Messy, drippy, and I wish

I wish I could clean that up

It’s a mess and I don’t –

I don’t know what to

I don’t know what to –

Do you feel that too?

Fuchsia, mauve, magenta

Teal, turquoise, aqua

Scarlet blood-red blood-orange

Grapefruit quicksilver blue-silver

Melted metal or

Water-in-a-steel-sink-colored

Candle yellow, candle orange, candle blue,

Flickering love it’s love it’s love

It’s love and oh shit what do I..

What do I do with that

Unbearable candle yellow orange blue white

Glowing melting wax burning soothing

Balm calming your eyes are glowing

They’re shining and you smile

White white whiter than the whitest white

Pink brownish pink reddish brown-you laugh

Rosy beige laugh-your lips

Molten purple violet candle wax

Melting candle wax blue orange yellow

Your feelings color rippling green-in-burgundy

Indigo-in-wine-in-bronze-in-cyan-in-tea green

Out of white out of blue circles

Melting beaded ellipses

Brown espresso brown

Chestnut auburn brown

To a black of the dusk forest

Mixed into brown green charcoal blue-black

Do you see this?

Your laugh is a color.

Your smile is a color.

Your lips are twenty colors.

And this is love, do you feel it?

You don’t open the letter,

You must feel it.

Are my smiles yellow the color of

The sun on a summer day in

The haze of a humid burnt green-yellow

Carolina summer day?
Or are they the shade of my new shoes at dawn?

Or the color of gushing water

Cool lovely violet oil paint

And pine green smelling

Of plastic yearning layered

Glossy watered drying paint?

The length of a breath passes

Your face blushing too

You can’t breathe

And your heart is pulsing vermilion

Vermilion vermilion vermilion

Cadenced, in time to mine

Or your own pounding rhythm?

Your fingers drum on the table

Khaki beige gray yellow orchid

Lady slipper yellow of your face

A flower in bloom after a spring rain

The moisture in the air

The trees greener than usual

The soil browner and somehow

Yes, somehow more scented

Earthiness rising up from earth

And I love you

And from this I know –

I feel — deep within ventricles

Your heart has knocked on

The door of my heart

Pounding to be let in

And even though it isn’t

It isn’t supposed to be

It is. I love I love I love you

And you love me too
And every second is

Every second is its lasts-forever-rainbow

Red orange yellow green

Blue indigo violet

Every second and I just

I just love love love
love you.

Open my love letter.